The iPhoneman at the busstation

First I thought he was a tramp or at least anyone having a few beers to much. Then I saw the wiring and the iPhone. He was charging his phone and probably surfing.

I got a lumbago that morning but had - and partly could - manage to stay all day. Last two hours standing upright at a conference. A colleague helped me and carried my laptop to the busterminal. He "arranged" me and my laptop in a way so I could manage to take care of myself when the bus arrived. While I slowly turned around I saw the view above.

In that moment I wished I had my Canon 500D. My small camera - always in handbag - was stone dead. But iPhone was thankfully there. I am happy to be able to collect these special views. The poor quality is not a problem since the image and moment is still there 

Now I am home in bed being bored. Sadly Photoshop is no good way to spent some hours in bed. I go back to TV and perhaps write on iPhone. This is going to be a long day.

A failure or "Impressionism" - trying to shoot a great picture

I have always wanted a red dress and just a few days before the bachatafestival I finally got THE dress. I wanted a picture and we tried just a few minutes before taking off into the snowstorm.

It didn´t turn out exactly as I had thought ...all pictures reminds me of something else than a Bachata party ...

Like the Danish impressionists - The Skagen Painters - and their portraits & interiors.

Like Anna Ancher's painting above or P.S  Krøyer

Or a painting made by Henri de Toulouse-Lautrec
but I cannot find exactly that one intended.
You know like the ones showing motion as well as a portrait.

(It looks just like the photographer was in a hurry too :)

Or like Luis Amer - a Spanish Artist

And here comes Shakespear´s "Taming of the shrew" (Så tuktas en arbigga)
or Scarlett O´Hara in "Gone with the wind"

No it wasn´t Krøyer, Toulouse-Lautrec or Anna Ancher.

It wasn´t even a photoshop filter.

Just my iPhone and poor light

And lack of time
 

Salsaparty - live stream

Streaming live video by Ustream
Show is over for this time :)
But it did work.

Strange referring information from Yandex

I have a lot of strange visits to my blogs from yandex.ru - a big Russian search engine.

If you specify the search as the referring information says - you cannot even find my pages. If you specify the search within quotes " " you may have a chance - but this gives another name in the referring field,. Sometimes used keywords is a complete sentence showing one single hit at whole internet universe = my page. But that does not make sense! Who would make sucha a stupid search and happen to find my site :-/

Either Yandex have problems with sending referral information or someone is pulling my leg. Another theory is some surf utility with fake referring information.
It can also be referral spamming. But who gains anything on this?

Any one else? Just curious :)
 

A weak day fixed with Salsa

I had fun the last months working with my project at work and a project beside normal work. I have more fun things to look forward to - and that was/is really needed. But today I was back to ground zero again. As "zeroed" as before 9 September 2010.

I read some discussion posts at Flashback forum this morning. And as always it hurts when people who actually know nothing talks about that accident. For long I managed to be there just to be able to tell people the truth. Then I needed a task...but I cannot do that any more. I have to stay away.

We will never know the whole truth. But I know they didn´t use headset - I saw it in Mona-Lisa's handbag. Nicely wrapped up.

Anyhow I managed to go out dancing tonight. I danced with two nice young men I haven´t seen before. One had the amazing ability to dance in the music not to the beat. And I had one great dance wit Philippe - actually with some grace and dignity for the first time. He has a unique style hard to follow but I always love every moment... even when I fail. And Alexander...he always makes me feel good. That energy and smile is enough...

I felt great for the moments. I hope I will feel even better tomorrow when I edit the pictures and one really great video recording. Dance pictures usually have that effect on me - I relive it once again and sometimes those moments are better than the original ones. Magic!


 Salsa with Nina and Fabian - two of the best dancers in town.




Nina and Tito dancing Cha cha cha. Tito is an international salsa star coming from Puerto Rico. He is dancing in the movie Havanna Nights or Dirty Dancing 2 (yes Patric Swayze is in this movie too)

Facebook as Memorial Cementry - 37 greetings at her Wall

A self portrait?

There were 37 greetings at her Facebook wall. A girl that is no longer with us. I wonder if all these people would have remembered her birthday without that notification. But they were there – sending her some thoughts, crying, still wondering what happened. That is all that counts.

We all got strength in mourning "together" for those minutes. But we all were also completely alone. I spoke to no one about my thoughts that day. I cried alone at late afternoon at work. I cried in the car on my way home. I cried in bed. I cried a few minutes ago when I checked that wall. I am crying now.

I have had a few great weeks. I felt how life came back. I felt strong again – like I could take charge over my life again. But I am weak again today. Despite first night full of sleep for months – I feel weak.

Mourning is a process but it do not repeat exact the same way. I came to think about iterative and incremental system development. Mourning is probably incremental in the long run. But first it is iterative.- you run in the windmill tearing down and building up again and again. Then a few months later it becomes incremental. You get stronger for each round. A better human being if you learn something while mourning.


I am wondering what I have learnt. Will I become a better person? Will this change my life in some good way?

Most of all I think about what I shall do with the rest of my life.
While not working, training, dancing salsa or crying.
There is so much in my head

About Facebook again....
We haven´t managed ourself to bring it down yet since there are things that the family wants to save - all her own status line updates that is hidden now for example. She was a very wise girl and wrote so well. One more attempt to get in charge over recovery mail address will be done before we ask Facebook to shoot it down.

And for the moment I am happy it still is there. It is like a "minneslund" (approximately Memorial cementry grove). A place where we all can go and remember her - looking at some of her pictures and "meet" others doing the same. I think this is great since otherwise I would have been all alone.

And for those who hesitate....
You do still have birthday even if you are dead. You was once given birth - that can never be undone. So you have birthday.