The Replacement Theory

9 dec 2010, three months and three lanterns

You think you are brave and have come over the worse. You feel life is coming back to you.You feel more happiness than misery. You think you never will feel the same again. You think you have got over it. The ranting riddles in your brain has started to slumber. You feel peace.

Some thing you never get over. You just pretend. You just manage to chop the sorrows down into small pieces and process them in a time sharing way.

You cry just a few minutes on the highway then you are yourself. Or in bed all alone when you go to sleep far too late. Next morning you cannot almost remember you cried. You let the sunshine in again.

Some losses you can get over. Some losses are screaming in your hearth for ever.

Some friends are replaceable. Others are not.

I am happy having found out the "replacement theory" works for parts in life. I have known it all the time. Others cannot be replaced. And I do not want them to be replaced.

I am happy having found new energy anyhow
despite I still am crying
Sometimes

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Mona-Lisa and her friend died at the railway accident 9 September 2010 at Stenungsund
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